Being a cheetah therian, I imagine, is quite different from the
experiences of most feline therians. Speed, for one thing. If there's
one thing that distinguishes a cheetah from other cats, it is speed (and
non-retractable claws, and diet, and social structure, but you get the
point). Speed is what we live on- it's how we catch our food, and I
imagine it's been used to escape from predators, though I am by no means
sure of that. We are the fastest land animals (scaling not taken into
account), and it shows in our body proportions.
All that
running's spilled over into our typical reaction to danger- run or find a
similar way to avoid confrontation (Durant 2000, I believe- Living with
the enemy: avoidance of hyenas and lions by cheetahs in the Serengeti
is the title). Quite simply, we have too much of a light build and small
jaws (The human equivalent, I suppose, would be arm muscles.). And that
fits me, too. I run. There's no shame in that, really. I stay and I
lose. By running from danger, I escape more or less unscathed. My role
will always be that of a coward, I suppose, but why should that be
innately negative? No matter how some might like to pretend otherwise,
one does not typically accomplish meaningful change via violence in this
day and age. Perhaps it could be done in the past, but I would prefer
to follow King and Ghandi than follow the likes of those who have tried
to overthrow a government via force. Perhaps force is sometimes
justified- but look at Africa, from where the cheetah comes. There, what
often happens when one government is overthrown is that residual
elements work to bring the new one down. Due to the legal implications
of permanently eliminating a foe, running, in my opinion, is the best
solution.
On the other hand, when it comes to a clash of minds, I
am a very different predator. Here, there is no real danger of me being
damaged, and I hunt with the ruthlessness of a more standard big cat.
And I rarely give up, to. This combination isn't the best one, and has
sometimes led to great emotional distress (I won't get into details, but
it happened online and no, did not involve me having my perceptions
challenged.). This is my form of hunting- not tooth and claw, but brain
against brain, neuron against neuron. Of course, my strategies differ
from that of the cheetah- my style of debate is hardly quick. But enough
on such matters. There are still more things to write about. Such as
food.
I'm sure most of my readers know the diet of the cheetah,
but for those who do not, it is mainly the weaker forms of ungulates.
Large herbivores such as zebra are foolish to try to bring down when one
can kill you with a hoof. Instead, we go after gazelle, which, while
fast, aren't as deadly. I wouldn't say that they are harmless, but they
pose less threat than a zebra. Cheetahs also dine upon casaba melon,
various small tasty animals, and eggs. A few brash male cheetahs have
been known to take down giraffe calves, but I regard this is an anomaly,
as these individuals were captive raised (Becoming a Tiger).
I
am a vegetarian. That is not to say, however, that I feel no predatory
urges. I do- and when I've looked at gazelle, they do look rather tasty
and helpless. But I overcome these, as I do not need to eat meat- if I
did, I would. But why take a life when you do not have to?
On the
other hand, the neighborhood squirrels are terrified of me, and with
good reason. I chase them- and I have no patience for stalking. Instead,
I simply explode into a run and go after them, and invariably lose.
Still, it's delightful to see them scurry up the trees. Pigeons are also
fun to chase, especially if they are the stupid kind that lands again a
few meters away, though where I live there aren't any.
Social
organization is probably one of the biggest places where cheetahs
diverge from the feline norm. Most cats are solitary and asocial.
Cheetahs have been described as asocial, but the males form groups. Of
one thousand seven hundred ninety-four cheetahs in East Africa twenty
seven percent were solitary, thirty-four percent were in pairs, nineteen
percent were in groups of three, and twenty percent were in groups of
four to twelve cheetahs (Graham 1966). Different results were found in
the Serengeti (of two hundred forty-four cats), where fifty-two percent
were solitary and only three percent were in groups of four- though this
was a smaller sample size (Schallar 1972). Eaton notes that some groups
even are composed of males and females. McLaughlin, on the other hand,
found that there were no mixed groups of cheetahs in the very same park
as Eaton. The papers were each published in 1970 from what I can find,
thus it is reasonable to conclude that they were done at roughly the
same general time period. Either the two mixed groups dissolved or the
females died. Generally, I leave the chapter with the impression that
cheetah social structure isn't what you'd call exceptionally fixed, but
fluid.
It is worth noting that the book I am using, Cheetah Under
the Sun, while apparently well-researched, was written in the 1970s and
is more or less out of date.
Despite this, some still apparently
consider cheetahs to be solitary. Personally, I feel that that's
rubbish. The point remains that unfortunately we seem to know little
about cheetah social structure. Since 1970, the resources I have found
seem to agree that male cheetahs often form coalitions- two or three
cats.
This, in my opinion, translates rather well over to me. I
must say that the idea of a loosely bound social group appeals to me.
The amount of socialization I want to engage in fluctuates a great deal.
I suppose I form permanent bonds, but their strength changes a great
deal and over rapid periods of time- a month or two, it often seems.
Play
is another place where I diverge from my wild cousins. Real cheetahs
play vigorously (Adamson 1969, found in Caro 1995), of which common
behaviors are crouching, stalking, pouncing, and chasing (Schallar
1972). Judging from the context in the article (Caro 1995), the quote of
which is, "Cheetahs have been noted for their vigorous play (Adamason
1969) which consists of crouching, stalking, pouncing, and chasing
(Schallar 1972) and cheetah cubs knock each other during play with the
typical paw slap that is later used to knock prey off balance (Prater
1935)," it seems that adult cheetahs play as well. In cheetah terms, I
would probably be more or less an adult, albeit a young one. I did
play-fight a fair amount in my youth, but I hesitate to attribute this
to therianthropy (But in my opinion, as I have stated before,
therianthropy is an end result rather than a process, so while not
innately a therianthropic behavior, play-fighting could be
therianthropic because it is expressed in a therianthropic way. However,
my memory is far too fuzzy to say if this was the case- the paw slap I
do not believe I did (though a cheetah cub would probably see it) and
while I remember a few instances of feline-like behavior during
playfighting, those were exceptions in my memory.).
My main idea
of play that corresponds to anything a cheetah might do is the chase
(other ideas of play are chess, logic puzzles, etc). I don't bother
trying to actually catch anything, I know I won't- but it is fun to
suddenly bolt after a squirrel and watch it run up the nearest tree,
scolding me from above. And there's something immensely satisfying about
it as well. This does not mean by any measure that I am adverse to
play-fighting, and sometimes I fantasize of fighting with claws. But I'm
in the SCA. Whenever I play-fight, I use boffer weapons.
Being a
cheetah therian seems often to be an exercise in contradictions. You
are at once asocial and intensely social. You could live with either,
but at least for me, I want both, and I'm bound and determined to have
both. You are a predator and territorial, but not very aggressive
compared to other big cats.
I really don't know how to end this
essay, I'll admit it. For a summary of my behaviors, I don't think
there's a neat conclusion. But I do have a message to any other cheetah
therians.
If you're like me and I'm right, then you'll feel
both an intense with to be around people, and maybe an urge for close
contact. I know I do (though I don't act on it, for the simple reason
that the human part of me is insecure). But at the same time, you want
to be alone. Can't have both at once. But you can have both in your
life.
-- Citrakayah
Written July 2011